Nicotine and Gravy

I really feel like I’m off my rocker right now. I know finals are coming up so it’s understandable that I’m stressed, but it’s not even a stressed sort of feeling anymore. Well, it that in combination with a million other overwhelming emotions that really really fucking suck right now.
First of all, I am sick as a dog with a horrible sore throat, sinus infection and on top of all that I’m PMSing like a motherfucker. (Sorry for all you males out there reading this, that’s the last reference I’ll make towards that for the rest of this post). I really have trouble getting my shit done when I’m sick, and believe me, there’s shit to be done. There’s the 8-10 page paper on the 5 Macroeconomic schools of thought, there’s the 15 minute presentation on Trichotillomania, 3 Casework Journals, plus finals in every class except one. I have an outstanding balance on my student account of 1,000 dollars that I have to pay up by Friday or else they’re turning it over to a collection agency. I also can’t visit him this weekend anymore because we both have too much shit to do. Which really fucking sucks, because usually when I feel like shit he’s the only one who can really make me feel better.
I know I’m being ridiculously self-centered and selfish; plenty of kids my age are having the same if not worse problems to deal with. So why am I having such a hard time staying on top of my shit? I watched a movie over the weekend that wasn’t even meant to be sad and I broke out bawling. Isn’t that pathetic?
I need to go to the doctor. I need a pick me up. I need out of this rut now before I’m ruined for these next two weeks! Why can’t this wait till after finals?